The hard decision

Love can make you sit and wait..but when you take a long hard look at that love your waiting on and it does more damage then good you know what you have to do.

My Love.....

Words can not define the love I found...It's been a journey to get to this point...it's scary and exciting at the same time...but I believe without a shadow of a doubt that WE are worth this journey....The thought of seeing him leaves me breathless...The smell of him makes me SMILE uncontrolably....The sound of his voice makes me long to hear it forever...

In this moment I am so happy with my love..... <3

In the middle of it all

Sometimes I wanna scream or cry but when I think about all of the blessings that I have in this life and I cannt do anything but smile. I have a 9 year old son that is the light of my life..he makes me smile and laugh in a way that only a child can. Then I have the best mother a person can ask for...she is always there for me...not in materials items but in knowledge and wisdom.

I am beyond blessed and high favored when I think about all of the people the LORD has seen fit to provide me in this life of mine...

I wish......

Someone would write rules to this.....Why does it always end this way??? Do I give up to soon or not soon enough? Do I say to much or not enough? Am I too aggressive or not enough?? Or do I just pick wrong????

This morning

I woke up feeling that something was different....this feeling in my gut that something was changing or had changed and now I figured out what it was...YOU.
When we started just 4 months ago everything was so exciting..you were interested in me and what i had to say...When did all that change? What happened to make you change? Why didnt you tell me or let me know that things were different?
I sit here confused and hurt not knowing what happened to all the hope and excitement...
It's only been 4 months and feelings are already different...
My feeling for you have not changed...I want you and all that comes with getting you but this thing seems to be one sided...
All of this leaves me so CONFUSED....